last night when i was reading (scrolling instagram), i got a nice short clip from emma, playing hermione in harry potter. she mentioned about the feelings of not included, not welcomed somewhere, not invited. pokoknya she said, making people feel not included is such a painful thing to do. and yes it does. i was very emotional regarding this short clip, cause ive been there. is there anyone never been in this position? for me, it's always the first-two years of new workplace. my first workmate treated me soo "nice" that i lost my weight significantly. after 17 years of having educations, from kindergarden to university, never have i ever felt i dont wanna leave house in the morning. not until i face this reality in these 2 offices. i was clearly not invited, and eventhough i dont technically need the invitation -i'm spiritually committed to my house and my kids outside the workhours- a tiny acknowledgement wouldnt hurt, would it? things are getting better, eventually...