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Shitty First Post

 Once you write you just need to keep going, i guess. 

Mamak ngecek post terakhir di blog pertama (yes this is my second blog) ternyata di tahun 2022, itupun cuman 3 biji. 

Kok cuman 3?

First, coz im not comfort putting my children's picts and vids there anymore. Aku pernah iseng gugel nama anak dan muncul videonya di semacam web gitu, without any permission, for sure. Not comfort dan kesel sih lebih tepatnya. So there you go, my first reason

Second, coz joining PNS-lyfe really struck me haha! Im not here to generally speaking for all PNS, but in my case, this life-changing option seems very primitive, i must say. Dan gue mikir-mikir kalau nulis di blog pertama, kok ga enak ya haha, my identity is quite obvious there

And the last reason, not the least i must say, is im starting to lose myself in this journey. Dont know exactly how to describe it, but ive had writing blog to be my therapy. As you might now later, my brain just cant stop travelling, asking, thinking and it's extremely exhausting! As simple as writing this "shitty first post" already pumping in dopamine into my bloodstream, relaxing~

 So there you go, officially having my raw shitty first post, where i would ideally talk about everything nice and

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